I don't, I can't, I won't be able to explain in words and make someone understand how I feel right now. Fulfilled, whole, elated, sad, yet humble. I have awoke every morning for the past week to the crisp, mountain air and fallen asleep to the light of the moon and stars. Here, in Texas I seldom ever see stars and the air is pungent with exhaust fumes and stuffy.
I am a Citizen of the World! Not Black, Not a Woman, No longer just an American! This world has been revolving around me and I had no clue, but now that I know what and who I truly am now, I must become the change that I have made.
Mary Catherine Bateson said, "A home is a place where it is possible to learn and grow, a place where whatever work is done has a meaning." I have a new home in Salzburg, with new life long friends and family. I have learned and grown by leaps and bounds in the last week, I didn't come back the same person and if I go back to being that person, I have cheated myself of the experience. I can no longer look at the world as black or white anymore because, its not.
I was forced out of my box, I was forced to think and grow. I was confronted with the pure reality of life, it came from the sky like a flaming ball of fire. Now as a parent, I must force these new perspectives into the mind of my child. Just think of the advantage that my son will be at learning the things that I know.
Today, I walked to the grocery store and the mall. The changes are small, but they are changes.
